snow

I can't express how thankful I am for the recent snowfall. Today was one of those rare sunny (yet snowy!) days in Cleveland. (average of sunny days in Clevo per December:2) I admired the Cleveland skyline today as I drove downtown--the terminal tower shrouded in hazy gray, the sun cutting through a blue sky. I really like driving (my street car named Murray)as it gives me time to ponder. And listen to amazing mix c-ds made by friends (my love language, besides hot drinks). And pray. And especially ponder.

The world is new after snowfall...and it feels new in other ways for me as well. I think this fall was marked with ups and downs of me trying to pressure myself into being furter along than I actually am, in whatever it is I am supposed to understand/know/be on top of in my life. Pretty frustrating, actually. Along with that, there has been a strain to reconcile friendships/relationships that have consisted of a chat over coffee once a year and now demand other attention(s). Lots of changes. I've never been too smooth with change, as it were. My family still makes fun of me for being devestated at the age of 5 when we decided to replace the kitchen sink. Nothing would ever be the same again, I must have thought. Yep, def. on the slow side when it comes to life changes, you know...moving home from overseas, getting new sinks... It must go back to the whole slow loris thing (refer to June's post). The snow was sort of a reminder to me to be kinder to myself and let this process work itself out. New start, clean slate. December is my favorite month, after all. In other news...I shrank another sweater. This is the second of the week. BLAH! So much for domesticity.